Fish food for brain health

Pompano Beach, South Florida

One of the great things about South Florida is this discount wholesaler called Penn Dutch. Their prices are through the roof low low low. Their fish counter is teeming with life.  I swear, they have fresh Chilean Seabass at 12.00 a lb. Crazy. At the regular market it’s almost 30.00 lb.

There is a town north of Hollywood, where I live,  called “Pompano Beach” and I found out that it’s named after the Pompano fish, which you can catch just off the coast across from my house. So I went to Penn Dutch yesterday, bought two whole Pompano Fishes, had them fileted (I don’t cut fish) and made this coconut milk, Thai Chile and Mint Herb soaked Pompano fish 4 first time. It’s actually a hell of a lot better than farmed Tilapia, which tastes just like the dirt pellets they feed it.

Write On: The WordPress Rule

Write On
I just found out from Opinionated Man on Harsh Reality about the WordPress limit on the combined number of tags and categories. If more than fifteen, they go out into the blogsphere version of the garbage can!!! That’s ok cause they needed work anyway!!!

I am back to writing my book. I was lost for a while and then reread “Haldol and Hyacinths,” because I wanted to see and hear the author’s voice. My book is not a memoir, it’s a trilogy of fiction with a manic depressive character who is still in the workplace. I am feeling like I am hitting my stride. Finding my own voice. It’s actually in rewrite.  I have bipolar disorder and have had it for twenty five years. The first med regime in ’89 worked really well for ten years. I was a total career woman as a disc jockey and rising journalist/music director. No time for psychiatrists, Work was my universe!!!

I was actually seeing my GP for my meds. When the meds stopped working, I was lost, thought I was out of luck and for another three years self medicated, got divorced, got blacklisted and then moved here and finally got back on track and returned to work.  I had been LOST for three years.

Earlier last week, I went to Lexington to see my father, who is a little up and down himself.  So I didn’t write for five days. I am spending about four hours a day on my book which is making it so that I don’t blog as often. But I did turn in a part one and part two eating disorder exercise bulimia blog to International bipolar foundation. It turns out that as many as 14-20% of patients with bipolar disorder actually have a co-occurring eating disorder. I’d been working on that piece, #no longer a number# for quite some time. I’m cooking dinner right now, taking a few minutes away from the stove and hoping I don’t get burned. (my food, I mean.)

I got clobbered by my good intentions at the mental health ‘drop in’ center!!!

I’ve hit a snag with mental health advocacy. I volunteered for years at the nearby drop in. I had high security clearance and brought meetings into the psych ward. I developed an eating disorder meeting for them. I got sick with depression and a three year struggle with trying to get Tardive Dyskinesia under control…with both conditions I couldn’t volunteer for about a year  and I fell off the volunteer rolls. Well again, well, well enough, I offered to bring a gentle Pilates Mat class and even get certified in group activity safety measures for them and for me. Well, as you can imagine, since the whole ‘story’ I tried to nicely write about them went south, they no longer think I’m ‘well’ enough to be a volunteer.

Despite this, I still tried to write a nice story about them and their services for International Bipolar Disorder. I interviewed the project director and took good notes. I gave her final editorial approval since I did want to quote her and wanted to improve our relationship. I guess I sent too many emails because as my deadline came and went, she was on vacation and I did not know. When she returned, I got a nasty email full of hypocritical ‘mindfulness’  telling me that her ‘intention’ is to show me kindness but I make it impossible by ‘bombarding’ her with emails. My deadline for the story had come and gone and I wanted to finish it. She works with the mentally ill so why should she expect so much out of me? Am I being discriminated against because I’m too high functioning? Let’s face it, I’m verbal, I’m not all doped up and docile and I ask questions. I try to express myself and spread the good news about treatment options, present and in the pipeline. And you would not believe how much is in the pipeline!!! Ketamine is a comin’!

Jewelry Making as therapy for bipolar depression symptoms and chronic pain.

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Movies: New, Notable and the ones that slipped away, unnoticed.

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Bryan Cranston in “Trumbo.”

He looks different from Mad Men, huh? Do you like him with hair or without?

Movies: New, notable and some unnoticed that SLIPPED BY us by and are on video or should be soon.

Movies: New, notable and some unnoticed that SLIPPED BY us by and are on video or should be soon.

Trumbo”  “Breaking Bad’s”Cranston about a screen writer during the McCarthy communist witch hunts. November.

“Spotlight” about Boston Globe journalists uncovering a Catholic Church coverup of pedophilia and other abuses of young children. Liev Schreiber, Mark Ruffalo, Stanley Tucci Rachel McCadams (Roger from Mad Men)  November

Peace Officer (about a cop) Peace Officer is a documentary about Police Violence.

Testament of Youth with newcomer Alicia Vikander and Kit Harrington as an almost suffragette woman during WWI era in England. She doesn’t want a husband, she wants to go to Oxford. The father is played by Dominic West of “The Affair.” Finally streaming. Slow at first but worth it.

Darwin Paul Bettany This is from 2009, but we didn’t see a wide screen release of it because it’s a British Film!!!

House of Spies..Tom Hanks dir: Speilberg. This is a must see. Even tho it’s a cold war drama concerning spies, it also deals with integrity, and upholding our constitution, which Tom Hanks argues is what essentially defines us as true Americans.

To look forward to. Ron Howard takes on an adaptation of “Moby Dick” in a film called “In the Heart of the sea.”

“HaiL Caesar” with George Clooney, Cohen brothers again.

“Carol” Cate Blanchett and Rooney Mara are in love. It’s set in the past when gays had to closet themselves so things are difficult for them.

“Return to Sender” Rosamund Pike (from Gone Girl)

“The Killing Season”DeNiro and Travolta (on video) these guys end up hunting each other.

“Burnt” Bradley Cooper. Something about a guy who has nothing to lose.

Also Older: “Slow West” Michael Fassbender plays a bounty hunter in 1880’s Colorado.

“Truth” with Cate Blanchett, Robert Redford Dennis Quaid and Elisabeth Moss.

“Room” with Joan Allen 2015 Canadian-Irish drama film directed by Lenny Abrahamson and written by Emma Donoghue, based on her novel of the same name. The film stars Brie Larson, Jacob Tremblay, Joan Allen, Sean Bridgers, and William H. Macy.

Plot – ‎Cast – ‎Production – ‎References

99 Homes with Michael Shannon, Predatory real estate practices during the loan foreclosure crisis. Evictions a gogo.

Iceman with James Franco, Winona Ryder, Ray Liotta & Michael Shannon again. Shannon got an Oscar Nomination for his performance in this organized crime movie. Liotta has a big part. Listen Up Phillip  Elisabeth Moss about a struggling writer

Listen to Me Marlon  Documentary Indie  I think I saw an ad that Showtime was going to air this.

Labyrinth of Lies..;.Germans questioning Nazi’s

Ashby with Mickey Roarke  Xfinity

“Shanghai  Gong Li John Cusak old but new

Pay the Ghost Nicolas Cage…Xfinity

Lost in Hong Kong  Gong Li, again.

Legend: Movie about the Krays

Labyrinth of Lies

Buying new alternative music on Itunes

I work out to music. Because I’m 54, most of my music is on cassette tapes. Sometimes when I am in a hurry to burn a new CD, and then tape it on cassette, there is a blank spot at the end of the tape. Well, since I am too broke to buy cassettes, what I am doing is every time I come across a blank ending, I put the tape by the boombox, blank side facing forward. Then, yesterday and today I am buying new music off of “The Lopsided World of L” playlist, LA’s “Indie 103.1” playlists (a streaming station), songs I hear on XMU and Alt Nation on Sirius Radio, and a playlist I get of the top spinning songs at Alternative stations across the country. See, I’m a former disc jockey in Alternative and was a music director, too. I love music. I even love some oldies and classic rock. What I hate is hair bands. I have this friend who has paranoid schizophrenia, and she must have had a ‘good period’ in the 80’s, because when we are driving around town, I tune in to “Classic Rewind” (hair bands and music from the 80’s an early 90s) and she sings all the songs by heart. She acts as if there is no other music in existence and is unwilling to give anything new a chance, which bugs me. But anyway, today I am buying “Even if you were the last junkie on Earth,” by the Dandy Warhol’s, Beck “Dreams” “Love Vigilantes” from New Order (did you know New Order has a new album out?) New Foo Fighters, and maybe some “Death Cab for Cutie.” Was listening to this Japanese Punk band yesterday “Bo Ningen” I think and I liked them. I am sad that Sonic Youth Broke up. I like Australia’s “Courtney Barnet” and Silversun Pickups, who have a new album out, I think. I go mad for The Clash and older Gang of Four.

Bipolar disorder diversions: New and Notable films

“Trumbo” with Bryan Cranston in November. Seems to be about a writer someone in Hollywood who was blacklisted in the McArthy (sp?) anticommunist witch hunt but still managed to work under cover..maybe.

“Steve Jobs.” (founder of Apple..you know) Michael Fassbender is an incredible actor. Seth Rogen plays his co founder and he says to Steve, “Your products are better than you are.” Jobs responds, “That’s the idea.”

“Bridge of Spies” Tom Hanks. Steven Speilberg. The Cold War? Not sure.

“Sicario” it’s a very interesting take on anticartel black ops designed to upset the system and hierarchy of the Mexican cartels. It’s very tense, violent, lots of horrifying carnage in Ciudad Juarez on Texas border. Underground tunnels, absolute deniability. Benicio Del Toro is a shadowy character that helps the US Cia-FBI joint venture with his knowledge of the whole deal. It’s obvious he was once a Cartel guy and paid for it dearly.

Labyrinth of Lies  Looks to be a German film or at least about Germans after WWII

Mississipi Grind (did you see Bloodline? The ne’r do well druggie Ben Mendelson takes a star turn here.) Ben Mendelson and Ryan Reynolds are down and out gamblers traveling cross country for a big score.

Ashby….know nothing except it’s a Mickey Roarke Film

99 Homes is a downer because all these people are being kicked out of their homes but it fills in the information gaps about all those horrible, variable rate mortages and bad loans given to people who could not afford them. It’s based in Florida and stars a guy from BoardWalk Empire, Michael Shannon.

Our Brand is Chaos: Sandra Bullock as a campaign manager in a South American Country, working for a guy who has no chance at winning the election

Listen to Me Marlon  A documentary and it looks like Showtime is going to broadcast it soon.

Truth   Robert Redford plays Dan Rather.

Carol  Cate Blanchette and Rooney Mara (Girl Dragon Tattoo) Older lady falls in love with shopgirl.

Mystery Shopping While Manic part three

I am a person with bipolar disorder and during a period of very high functioning low grade hypomania, I was a mystery shopper. My sponsor in OA had been doing it forever and she taught me how to get in. It’s easy. If you want to know, email me at bipolarbrainiacSFL@Hotmail.com and I’ll go over it with you. I did it for a year and then had a rough experience with the completion of four lengthy reports I had to do over and over due to computer problems on their end. It stopped being fun. I had also done a few Dior Cosmetic counter shops where I was paid 80 bucks to buy something and keep track of their customer service. One thing led to another and I ended up in a Dior beauty class and I bought 700.00 of cosmetics. That kind of behavior could not go on. I went into debt.  One thing though, five years later and their beautiful five color eye shadow palettes are still in my bathroom, being used and I love them. They are 50 bucks apiece. Crazy, huh?

The expensive Dior face creams that promise youthful results are like 400 a jar. Crazy. Yet the mystery shopping made me want to buy them. I didn’t of course.

My next mystery shopping blog deals with restaurant shops. You get paid to go to these high end restaurants and pay attention to the hosts and servers. They pay enough so you can take a friend. In fact, they want you to take a friend.

Manic While Mystery Shopping

So I was mystery shopping after getting my certification and driving from one supermall to another. I was the type of customer that the workers remembered so if I felt I was getting to familiar and and so forth I would tell the mystery shopping people and they would take me off the account.

They always pay you less than you are going to want to spend. For example, I was sent to L’Occitane, a shop with perfums and soaps that start at forty bucks. And for that shop you are given 30 to spend. Yuk, right?

Then I got a string of ‘shops’ that’s what jobs are called at Chanel and Dior cosmetic counters. A total of six. One after another, pretending to be interested, accepting a makeover, fun, right? Not so much, really. I was given 80 to spend, and their eye shadows start at 50.00. And if you get a makeover for free or go to a class, you will have so much pushed on you that it’s hard to stay within budget. The company was called “A Closer Look,” for those of you who want to do this kind of high end sampling.

Then there was the three hour long report with 200 questions on the back end of each shop.
And there was something wrong with their computer system. So I had to do each of these reports twice. That was the end of mystery shopping for me. Because the report was due tomorrow and they didn’t take any responsibility. Plus I had incurred credit card debt on account of being in stores, shopping, while manic. Never a fine idea.

Manic while Mystery Shopping

About four years ago I had a sponsor in Overeaters anonymous. She was a tough cookie. She was in her eighties and had survived two rounds of cancer. She was an accomplished and sought after mystery shopper. She did four jobs a week.

She taught me how to get involved. First of all, half of those offering assistance in finding jobs in the field of mystery shopping are fraudulent. They charge people for lists of mystery shopping companies. There are quite a few and some of them specialize in high end, shoplifting prevention and restaurant reviews to name a few. But this ‘charging’ for lists is bogus. Getting good jobs in mystery shopping is a different process. Here it is:

What a person needs to do is become silver certified by the MSPA, Mystery Shoppers Providers Association. Google that, pay them a one time fee of around sixty bucks to study their tutorial, take their test and get Silver Certified. Most mystery shopping firms, like ‘A closer Look,’ and Jancyn (sp?) require that certification before giving you anything.  You get the ‘silver,’ (there is a gold cert available but it’s inconvenient and requires travel. Then you start googling to find that list or request a list from MSPA.  My OA sponsor told me all that stuff. I still have my silver certificate on the wall. It has a number so that the mystery shopping outfits can verify that I am Silver Certified.

I got ‘in’ with a high end outfit who sent me to Burberry, Chanel Cosmetics, Dior cosmetic counter,  Aveda, Dior Couture, Ferragamo, Kate Spade, Coach Barney’s New York, Cole Haan, and other such stores.  I also ‘in’ with a few restaurant accounts. Each company  makes you study yet another tutorial on what that mystery shopping company wants from its’ employees. Then they have you on a list of available mystery shoppers. Sometimes they contact you for last minute stuff that you have to do and report on by the next day with an added financial incentive. A relationship with a mystery shopping company representative involves a lot of trading. It’s ok. If you do them favors, they will make sure that they save the more lucrative shops for you. It works out. But it requires constant computer access. Everything is done over the computer.

What you have to do for every different store job, is study and pass a test. These tests cover what the ‘brand,’ stands for and they type of displays, customer service, how long the line is, what questions they ask you, all sort of things that the parent company wants you to make sure that the employees are doing.  I get triggered in high end shopping environments. Since the jobs usually require you to purchase something and then return it, it can be a double trigger. One time I bought a pair of Ferragamo Shoes that I loved and had to return them. I have foot problems from excessive sports and I have to have really high quality shoes so that my feet don’t hurt. These shoes were 500.00 and I could not afford such a purchase. As I returned the shoes, I felt like a total fraud. I didn’t want to. But the job required that. For the next six months  I visited the outlet stores at Sawgrass Mills, searching for the same shoe on sale. But it was never available In my size. The amount of money they paid me to go there twice and write the report might have been forty dollars. It wasn’t worth the heartbreak. I’d have just as soon never known about this perfect black, stretchy shoe.

After a mystery shopping job, you have to fill out a very time consuming form and write mini essays on your experience with the retailer. Believe me, you have to do your homework and do quality work. If your memory is not so strong (as in my case due to psych meds) this can be challenging. And for a long one like a restaurant, they do not let you take notes because that would give you away as a corporate ‘spy.’

More on mystery shopping while manic tomorrow. There are some funny stories.