Rejection of personal mental health advocacy and volunteering for volunteer work

I have to tell you a nutty thing. I had a bunch of advocacy assignments and my husband was on vacation this week, so I got them all done early.
Then, I was under no pressure!!! I feel unwanted and valueless unless I am under pressure!!!  Not only that, but I submitted my video with two edits to the promotion ‘you’ve got this.’ Guess what? They decided to find one more thing wrong with my video. One must be prepared: When one puts themselves and their voice of hope and recovery out there for consumption, whether it be for a charitable foundation or a promotion between a drug company and a magazine supported by drug company money, not everyone’s voice will be welcomed. I have encountered more rejection than acceptance of my submitted stories and videos. And I have found out that I don’t have thick enough skin, still.