Kurt, RIP You Meant So Much To Me

 

Heck Montage was released this week. We can see it on HBO Monday Night. Can’t wait.  The director has a good track record documenting enigmatic icons with conflicting swirling stories about them. It’s a documentary during Which Courtney Love and her daughter went to court over rights, etc.  Filming had to be shut down here and there for periods of a year or more.

But the documentary apparently features great images and clips of the band playing live. I’ve heard that he had chronic stomach pain and some sort of depression. Hard to tell,  though with all the drugs in his system. HeWANTED to do it. Somepeople try to commit suicide as a cry for help. He didn’t.  I’ve done some research since posting this on Twitter and am going to do a blog on what I know after watching the documentary.

2 Many Doctors appts give birth to a great idea!

Ok, on a day when I have doctor’s appointments, I get depressed. And it’s getting even more triggering to me. As a person who has survived pretty well with bipolar disorder for 25 years, weathered bad and good times and irreversible side effects, the illnesses mushroom. Oh, if I knew then what I know now. That’s why I want to write a book.  Hey, I could write the whole thing in doctor’s offices waiting rooms!!!

To balance the morbidity I get a good workout in in between, before or afterward.

Here’s what got me thru

“Rage Against the Machine” The ever soulful “The Ghost of Tom Joad”

Gary Jules “Mad World” also done by Tears for fears

Ice Cube “It was a good day.”

Led Zepplin “Boogie With Stu.”

a lot of people don’t get rap. They drive home their oppression. I would think anyone with a mental illness would understand the idea of being underneath a power pushing them down. Here’s my fav lyric

“Today I didn’t need to use my AK, I’d say today was a Good Day.”

ha. Power lifting and treadmill reading The NYT Sunday Edition. The upper balances the downers.

Or try this: DC Hardcore Band Fugazi’s classic rage fueled “Waiting Room.”