Wells Fargo Ad Hardly Hilarious



Has anyone else seen these pastoral images of surety in full page apology ads and found it odd?

I wonder if the ad agency got the memo. They have to come up with something new. Like a photo of their entire management team bowed in supplicatio. Seriously. Horses?

They use these horses and talk about how sorry they are that they betrayed our trust.

They should have pictures of their entire sales team bowed in supplication showing how sorry they are they got caught.



Why do I blog? I mean, really????



I used to be in radio, which is a commercial business that carefully calculates who they are trying to reach, how old they are, race, level of education, income, etc. My format, alternative, was aimed at 18-34 year olds, 60-40 men, mostly and women. At the time, I was in my thirties (I did this from 29-39). I knew as an employee, I’d age out sooner than later. When the ad department sells that Saturday Afternoon live remote from the car dealership, they don’t want to send out a 55 year old woman, I mean, not really.


The reason I bring this up in the overall discussion of why I do what I do… is I rarely blog and am even guiltier of not reading and responding to others. I hardly ever go on facebook. Twitter? Can’t be bothered, yet this is the best place to ‘reach out and touch’ someone.


Basically, I am looking to collaborate on an intellectual level with writers, bipolar so much the better. I’m in that phase of writing articles for magazines and the local newspapers (Miami Herald, South Florida Sun Sentinel, Bipolar Hope, etc.,) and try to figure out which books to write and which topics to include.


I can’t figure out if tardive dyskinesia belongs in a separate book all its’ own. What do you think?

I can’t get anyone to tell me how many of us there are.

The info I’ve dug up is of practical information to those of us who take the drugs that cause them…..those atypical antipsychotics advertised as ‘helpful for depression’ that list warnings for antidepressants so the consumer doesn’t realize they are being prescribed a cousin of Thorazine, a drug that helped a ton of people in the 52’s and emptied mental institutions. Those people could now live their lives on the outside.

The info on movement disorders caused by Reglan and antipsychotics that I can’t seem to dig up is even more interesting.

Many neuros in the field say they’ll answer questions and then blow me off.

I know why this is and want to write about it. It’s not damnning, but it’s practical knowledge we are deprived of.

I lost my grant for tardive medicine this year. It’s changed my perspective. To put it lightly.

I am just looking for feedback. But it seems like a crowded field out here. Especially when you get to the point that you are writing for all these publications demanding copy guaranteed to print….it’s hard to come back and blog, sorta.

Indie Pharmacies an Endangered Species…The only kind who understands and cares


I am on a tear to save independent pharmacies being driven out of business. If you read my stuff, you know I have bipolar/tardive/borderline diabetic side effects. When I got tardive my publix of fifteen years bumped me off. My complications were too much for them. I found an indie which is why I wrote this story. Indies are being driven out of business. Conflict of interest/collusion between pharmacy benefit managers and the drugstores they own and government laws that benefit….well you get the picture.

One click is all I need to support this movement.





Weekly Word Review



This is Michael and I at his job. He used to be a construction superintendant, a foreman. He can fix or make just about anything. In 2008, the construction industry went bust down here and all these high rises they were gonna build just went bust mid-project. You can imagine Michael’s job prospects at this point. the company he’d been working for, Lear Construction, went out of business.

This is the last one, of this batch. I’m running out.

Luxating Patella, if you have an older dog, you might have come across this. It’s when the patella (kneebone) shifts, pops off to the side or front. It’s got to be really painful. I wonder if they have pain meds for dogs.

inimitable: So good impossible to duplicate, imitate.

Fulsome: Excessively Flattering. Probly the type of stuff the Kardashian’s wear.

Thrummed: Thrum, to reverberate in someone’s ear, echo, like in this case referring to the engine of a boat. Rrrh Rrrrh

Mentally Ill Dying in Prison Transport Vans

This is What Riker’s Island Looks from The Sky


rikers island

When I was driving home from my tardive dyskinesia neurologist appointment in Gainesville I read an article that made me shudder. It could be me. Prisoners being driving from one facility to another are at the mercy of untrained people who drive the vans and have more of a trucker mentality. It’s about how many people you can get quickly from one place to another. So they jam the vans, deprive the prisoners of bathroom breaks, etc. When a mentally ill person doesn’t get their meds for three or four days they can decompensate and start babbling loudly or drooling, one person died of Xanax withdrawal.


I thought…’It could have been me.’ I’ve been privileged to have good care and avoid the hospital for seventeen years but when my former bff called the cops on me and told them I was suicidal, I was in a holding area very similar to a county jail. A long time ago, the eighties, I had legal problems re my drug habit and went to jail five times, so I know what I’m talking about.


The problem is the privatization of public prison and jail systems. These people know how to penny pinch but it’s at the expense of those they transport and their human rights.

Opiod Replacement Pain Medicines in Pipeline..?: Will we get ’em? Do they want us to get ‘well’?


So much is being made on black marketed prescription drugs like oxy and ‘the box’ that you gotta wonder The FDA and DEA are at cross purposes because pain advocates are pushing back, assisted by big pharma. Why not, right? The CNN Story with Anderson Cooper distorted it further. So much confusion we’re not entitled to ‘straight dope’ on this issue. I recently learned IBUPROFEN and Tylenol, my first line “go tos” destroy a digestive enzyme, furthering the constipation problem I suffer with it. hey, someone’s gotta speak up.

So, here’s holistic hope to hold onto, sorta..this will be a pricey pharmaceutical too: Hot off Press this week-Duke University Study isolated pain receptors TRPV4 and TRPAI and have a way to activate them; releasing natural endocannibinoids (not endorphine..that was debunke4d ages ago) to secrete natural painkillers for our comfort.

Organic stuff, sad to say, like MS contin, which I took for sixteen years, are actually better for your overall systemic health than NSAIDs which harm the liver and destroy digestive enzymes. Whoops I’m repeating myself. I just wanted you to know the knews. \

And I have yet another natural way of dealing with chronic pain in this article. A click is all it takes to make my day. At least you aren’t making Mark Zuckerberg of Facebook richer. If you click this, you are helping me and my platform. Am I going about this the wrong way? I should be listening to your aches and pains and I promise to do more of that. It, too, is a natural painkiller, releasing a substance called Oxytocin, the ‘love’ hormone begotten of human interaction with those you care about even if you’re separated by miles and held together by broadband.

Here I am: http://www.bphope.com/blog/bipolar-mood-cycles-stop-fighting-and-win/


90’s Film “Swimming With Sharks” w/Kevin Spacey


It’s “Shark Week.” And I’m back out in the water, crawling my 1 1/2 miles with a back brace on to prevent me from aggravating my spine twisting my torso too far when I turn right and left for a breath of air.

Little by little, we lose things we love and adjust, accept and move on. I’m the worst, constantly trying to ‘have iot all,’ as my health deteriorates. lololol! I need to go back to AA and practice “Acceptance” and  “Life on Life’s Terms.” Did those faces trigger or seem punitively grim to anyone else? Or am I the only one?


Anyway, movies like these, (and I’ll bet you never heard of “Swimming With Sharks),” helps me with chronic pain. Maybe cuz it’s my favorite topic: Hollywood Studios and the machinations taking place behind the walls.

It was an indie film and did not get wide distribution. I lived in LA when it came out and also when the film “Affliction” was released, featuring Nick Nolte, Willem Dafoe, Sissy Spacek and the late James Coburn.  Family alcoholism and mental illness passed on and one in a small town in Maine. The bitterly cold climate was a perfect counterpoint to the simmering rage between brothers over ‘who fucked up the worst’ similar to Bloodline. These are Indie films with A-listers.

What does that tell you about Hollywood, Money And Power?


I taking on the ‘powers that be’ trying to address a side effect of antipsychotics that’s mostly covered up.

It’s a movement disorder. I have it.  If I say what, I’m afraid you’ll split. But it’s important. It may be rarer than we thought but it’s real. People at risk or showing early signs need to know.

Deal? Help me? Click and/or comment on this little story if you think we can help each other…. and I’ll find out who you are and we can talk about whatever. On WP, we do that, or at least that’s my experience.


Move Over, Movement Disorder: Tardive Dyskinesia and its impact on chronic back pain.




I know many are upset about the CNN report with Anderson Cooper on “The Opiate Epidemic.” I could go on and on about that one and my 16 years of a high quality of life due to these ‘dangerous’ drugs. Tardive Dyskinesia takes an injured low back and adds in jerky twists, turns and torks of my torso. Oh, my gosh. Even on pain meds I can feel the instant delivery of shots of pain from the twitching and spasm. Oh well. Seven years of STIMA and Chronic pain. So the topic of chronic pain magnified by tardive dyskinesia has come up because I finally had to quit using my ms contin after 16 safe, responsible, uncomplicated use. I even drove my dose down to a 1/3 of what is was before when I finally stopped due to side effects. 16 years. And I’m a person with a former history of substance abuse, exercise addictio9n, left handed, and bipolar. The very person they think is most at risk of going to the streets, to heroin or abusing their prescription. Puleeze!!!

Enough on that topic. It is what it is and that’s why I’ve stopped “Fighting” it.


I’ve been listening to 90’s hardcore Grungers “Mudhoney” and their epic “Don’t Touch Me, I’m Sick!” In my 7 years with Tardive Dyskinesia, regarding stigma, they lay it on thick. Real thick. Some doctors won’t even take you on.  They see you as a walking lawsuit. Not in a million years.  I’m in enough physical and mental pain and don’t want others to suffer just because I do. I wish Deb Houry from the CDC who says opiates don’t benefit long term, noncancerous pain!!!!!!!!!


But on Tardive I have really good news!!!!

A few years ago, I wrote about this. It’s food for thought if you are on an antipsychotic, new or old. However,  MUCH LESS CAUSE FOR WORRY side effect wise. Newer drugs are much cleaner of this neurological and even metabolic fallout.

Tardive Website links and Utube:

Blog: http://www.ibpf.org/blog/move-over-movement-disorder

Tardive Vlogs Utube

Part 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nCOR_YVo-ks

Part 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TqfEX8jl-Zs

Chronic pain compounded by tardive dyskinesia…please don’t write about what you don’t understand.

al in german dress and new earrings

I safely used ms contin for sixteen years, all the while hydrating, swimming, pilates, Wobenzyme, Pau’ D’Arco, Turmeric (anti inflammatory diet, rabbit food regimen) regular stretching, etc, for pain and round after round of expensive injections (12 in all..they all cost 200.00 and they all failed).

One of them caused a severe flare, causing me to ACTUALLY use the amount prescribed. Mostly, I took way less, taking cold turkey ‘vacations’ to drive DOWN my tolerance/dosage.

The other one was a test for “Coolief,” the burning of the entire nerve branch block of my lumbar spine. It’s tens of thousands of dollars and Medicare doesn’t prior authorize it. I’d lose my house. That’s one thing in life I’m not incurring penalties and interest on, like the taking of pain medicine. Hey, I know it’s long term bad but I can’t take the present of my ‘present.’ I don’t abuse my meds. I stopped because they were abusing me, idiots.

And I have bipolar and a history of drug abuse. And I’m intelligent and left handed, creative. So if I’m such a drug addict, why is it, tell me, that when I finally stopped at 1/3 of what I had been taking in prior years, there were 250 extra pills left over? Because I kept cutting them up in an effort to get by with less and the pills that couldn’t be cut in half, I saved for a rainy day. I can’t take them anymore anyway. They sit here and I don’t think about them until I read an article by someone who thinks there is no benefits of taking opiates for non cancerous chronic pain. For palliative care only. I have the spine of an 85 year old at 55. I was a professional athlete and exercise bulimic, under a ton of pressure to be thin to do commercials and modeling. It’s a disease, not just a vanity thing. I’ve been to eating disorder treatment twice, both for4 60 days. Bankrupted me and my family.

On the pain thing  But I don’t think you understand the agony of a psoriatic arthritic whose injuries are compounded by the uncontrollable muscle spasms of tardive dyskinesia, a rare but real side effect of my bipolar medications, which I take like clockwork and have also tried to reduce or discontinue. You probably don’t believe in bipolar either but trust me, without these meds I have delusions I have children and fixate on stop signs.

Please, people, talk to people who are truly in pain. Who need their meds to work when the pain is truly excruciating, unlivable.

Please, opiate haters, Don’t talk about what you don’t understand.

Heres start of A Medicare Report of Abuse .. Stigma, both racial, socioeconomic and bipolar



Hey you guys…I just wrote this up. A formal complaint of long term abuse I endured by Quest laboratories over a seven year period because I was ashamed, cowed and didn’t think I deserved better. They almost succeeded in denying me my critical lab services to get my most important mood stabilizer. They are NOT going to get away with it. I may be one of the ‘little’ people but I’m “mad as hell and not going to take Stigma any more.”

Local Lab Chain’s Long Term Abuse, shame shame shame on YOU@!



To: Medicare’s Beneficiaries and Family Centers Care and Quality Improvement Center for quality Improvement Organization.

Re: Systemic and local problem in my seven years as a monthly client of Quest Labs, 3343 Sheridan Street Location, Hollywood, Florida. 33021-3606. (the last four digits of zip were hard to read).

This long letter, I’m sorry but there’s a lot to cover, chronicles a litany of abusive treatment, jeapordy of my health, healthcare and access to a most critical medication by one of your providers.

It’s a case of stigma, and if you get to page 8 you’ll see the ‘diversity in reverse’ racial discriminatory aspect as well. I don’t come out and say who’s what color but I do remember distinctly a conversation I had with the supervisor whose name is Augusta.  You’ll be able to see this sad scenario in full blown Technicolor. But there are other types of stigma, abuse, and discrimination as well. A systemic aspect infecting all aspects of the corporation. It can’t continue. You must be informed of this so it doesn’t happen to anyone else.

(I will be sending this to better business bureau, chamber of commerce and any other regulatory agencies I can find too. ‘

Do you want to hear the rest of it?  Let me know.

If you want their number it’s 844-455-8708