I’m depressed again.
This really sucks. How long’s it gonna last? I can’t think of any antidepressant I HAVEN’T TAKEN. So what do we do?
When it hit me, I spent the next two days in bed. But I can’t do that. So I crawled out and went to starbucks, my daily routine with the newspaper. I’m going to continue writing and blogging and doing the stuff I do…I just don’t enjoy it half as much.
Even lifting weights. I do it because I believe it’s really good, physically, for the mind. Prevents cognitive decline. So I’ve been going on iTunes, even though I’m one of the people who have that bug, and burning songs. Some that I buy won’t download. They have this little exclamation point right to the left. There are tons of forums about this.
Apple’s position? The problem is on our end and they take no responsibility. In the meantime I purchase new music by Guided By Voices, Daft Punk and even the Red Hot Chili Peppers, who I was never that crazy about. Like Primus. You call that music? I donnaknow.
After 27 years of this, it gets old. I lay out my meds in my tray, aware I’m just buying time until the antidepressants stop working and I go back to square one to find a new cocktail. I’m not easy to treat but we know what works. I stay with my ‘all cash’ shrink, even though over the years I’ve had ten second opinions (tardive will make you do that in hopes someone, anyone will be able to help) and I’m not impressed with whose out there. Especially the ALF and hospital Hacks. Even their patients don’t like them.
Anyway, I ‘forgot’ to put my Wellbutrin out for a week straight. The tray looked a bit light but I couldn’t figure it out and got distracted day in, day out. Well, it worked, I fell right back in the ditch until I figured it out.
I’m ‘over’ taking medication. You?
Since everyone is doing Xmas stuff, I thought I’d throw mine in. I initially sent it to IBPF, but something is going on over there, a change of guard, so to speak. I asked for my story back.
Plus I’m tired of writing ‘Blogs’ per se. Sometimes I want to write features. This is a ‘feature’
Everyone likes music, right?
Facebook Xmas Story
Right now things are cheap. I’ve met all my deductibles and struggled through the donut hole. My medical expenses have become three times as high since I got tardive dyskinesia. So it’s time to get procedures like routine stuff and even colonoscopy type crap out of the way and when it’s 2017, avoid going to the doctor as much as possible. My deductible for meds alone is 300.
The meds for psoriasis 200 mo and that’s in catastrophic…the meds for tardive…copay is 300..These are ‘specialty’ medications. I’m not sure what makes them ‘special’ ….as for the increased med xpenses post Tardive, I have thoughts on this matter but have never gone after a lawsuit. I actually have a better idea. I’m writing a book on it.
The cursor is blinking. Does that mean it’s time?
Has anyone else seen these pastoral images of surety in full page apology ads and found it odd?
I wonder if the ad agency got the memo. They have to come up with something new. Like a photo of their entire management team bowed in supplicatio. Seriously. Horses?
They use these horses and talk about how sorry they are that they betrayed our trust.
They should have pictures of their entire sales team bowed in supplication showing how sorry they are they got caught.
I did this video about a comment I’ve gotten my whole life and a new way or two to look at it.
I think I’m fat. No, just kidding.
I definitely need better hair. It did NOT look good up that day. Trainwreck.
I am on a tear to save independent pharmacies being driven out of business. If you read my stuff, you know I have bipolar/tardive/borderline diabetic side effects. When I got tardive my publix of fifteen years bumped me off. My complications were too much for them. I found an indie which is why I wrote this story.