Late Paramount Studios Chief Bipolar and Dialectical as Hell (DBT)

 

Charles Bludhorn. Crazy as a fox. Bipolar..they say. They called him ‘The Mad Austrian.’ He knew alot, but he knew what he didn’t know, and so he delegated the role of “Head of Production” to a failed actor named Robert Evans.

He told Robert, “Make movies that people want to see. None of that Fancy Schmhancy stuff.”

The studio was on the brink of collapse in the late sixties. Evans lined up ‘Love Story’  ‘The Godfather’ and ‘Chinatown’ in short order and saved the studio.

For all his delegation, Bludhorn died the death of a control freak. A Heart Attack at 56, while on a jet bound from New York to Los Angeles.

Dialectic. Opposites. Smart and Stupid. Sane and Crazy. Level Headed one moment, screaming the next. Robert Evans married Ali McGraw and the rest was Hollywood History.

From your “Tale of Two Hollywoods” pal in Hollywood, Florida…It’s Allison Strong. Back Atcha.

 

Punk Rock ‘Three Chords and The Truth?’

I heard about an artist, Colleen Green, who says her work is ‘Ramonesque’…i.e., The Ramones. I find stuff like this in the New York Times on the stairmaster at the Y.

Last week, on Sirius’ ‘Guns and Roses Channel,’ I heard all kinds of good stuff that I want to purchase and record. Also heard really good stuff on Jonathan L’s “The Lopsided World of L” Mersey Radio, Liverpool, England.

Jonathan is a former employer of mine at Radio station KFMA and ‘The Q’ both Phoenix, Arizona. You gotta know when someone hires you twice, you have worth in their eyes. This has nothing to do with Bipolar Disorder or Tardive Dyskinesia….it’s what I do to get out of depressive phases, like the one I’m in right now.

Why I’ve been Dark…..

Yeah, I’m writing a book on my favorite topic, a cause so crying out for coverage I can’t stand it. It’s inflammatory, political. Side effect not sickness. Something (a product) causes it. Or supposedly does. (I’m open to other theories. You know how quickly medicine changes).

The topic I wrestle (or wrestle) with the most is Tardive Dyskinesia, a side effect of antipsychotics. It’s gaining traction on Television with “The Good Wife’s” Michael J Fox’s character, Louis Canning, who has TV, or the ‘patient/perp’ storylines on “Law and Order.” TD comes up there in a clarion call crying out that for the mentally ill in the criminal justice system, justice can never be served. Well, it can get dicey out here on the outside of penal institutions as well.  It’s just that no one wants to hear about it just yet.

 

Mentally healthy people get prescriptions for Antipsychotics. In 2015, 60 million RX’s for antipsychotics were written, (according to QuintilesIMS, a global tech and data solutions provider for the healthcare industry.

These drugs are helping, it seems, everything under the sun, from anorexia to insomnia, OCD and anxiety. Who doesn’t want to feel better, right? I take one myself.

 

 Glowingly ‘madvertised’ on TV with enervating names that suggest Results (Rexulti) The World is Your Oyster (Geodon) Able again, (Abilify)….and that’s fine. These are good drugs and certainly an improvement over the mood stabilizers that ruined people’s kidneys. The thing is…they work so fast and so fully we forget to check the flip side. And there always is one.

 

If you are having uncontrollable movements and think you might be on one of these drugs….there’s finally an FDA-approved treatment for our 55 plus year old, long neglected syndrome, Tardive Dyskinesia. Another one, a second, (when it rains it pours) is supposed to be FDA-approved (or not) on August 30th.

I’m going to try one.

If YOU think you need a TD specialist, as opposed to a TD ‘Denier’ to check you out (and there are TD ‘Deniers’ out there, sad to say), here is a state-by-state link.

 

Hopefully, it will help you out. And yeah, I’m still bipolar…pulled out of my last ditch in March. I think DBT skills really helped. More on that later.  It’s good to be back.

http://www.lifescript.com/doctor-directory/condition/n-neuroleptic-induced-tardive-dyskinesia.aspx

 

 

Bipolar Depression…it’s baaacckkk! and 2,000 of my ‘Itunes’ songs are ‘Missing!’ Still!

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I’m depressed again.

This really sucks. How long’s it gonna last? I can’t think of any antidepressant I HAVEN’T TAKEN. So what do we do?

When it hit me, I spent the next two days in bed. But I can’t do that. So I crawled out and went to starbucks, my daily routine with the newspaper. I’m going to continue writing and blogging and doing the stuff I do…I just don’t enjoy it half as much.

Even lifting weights. I do it because I believe it’s really good, physically, for the mind. Prevents cognitive decline. So I’ve been going on iTunes, even though I’m one of the people who have that bug, and burning songs. Some that I buy won’t download. They have this little exclamation point right to the left. There are tons of forums about this.

 

Apple’s position? The problem is on our end and they take no responsibility. In the meantime I purchase new music by Guided By Voices, Daft Punk and even the Red Hot Chili Peppers, who I was never that crazy about. Like Primus. You call that music? I donnaknow.

 

And yet, I’m so religious about taking my medicine!!!!

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After 27 years of this, it gets old. I lay out my meds in my tray, aware I’m just buying time until the antidepressants stop working and I go back to square one to find a new cocktail. I’m not easy to treat but we know what works. I stay with my ‘all cash’ shrink, even though over the years I’ve had ten second opinions (tardive will make you do that in hopes someone, anyone will be able to help) and I’m not impressed with whose out there. Especially the ALF and hospital Hacks. Even their patients don’t like them.

Anyway, I ‘forgot’ to put my Wellbutrin out for a week straight. The tray looked a bit light but I couldn’t figure it out and got distracted day in, day out. Well, it worked, I fell right back in the ditch until I figured it out.

I’m ‘over’ taking medication. You?

Xmas Playlist on Bphope w/Zen stuff thrown in.

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Since everyone is doing Xmas stuff, I thought I’d throw mine in. I initially sent it to IBPF, but something is going on over there, a change of guard, so to speak. I asked for my story back.

Plus I’m tired of writing ‘Blogs’ per se. Sometimes I want to write features. This is a ‘feature’

Everyone likes music, right?

Facebook Xmas Story

https://www.facebook.com/bpMagazine/posts/1674201439272043

 

 

End of Year Health and Mental Health Self Advocacy for Allison, finally.

 

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Right now things are cheap. I’ve met all my deductibles and struggled through the donut hole. My medical expenses have become three times as high since I got tardive dyskinesia. So it’s time to get procedures like routine stuff and even colonoscopy type crap out of the way and when it’s 2017, avoid going to the doctor as much as possible. My deductible for meds alone is 300.

The meds for psoriasis 200 mo and that’s in catastrophic…the meds for tardive…copay is 300..These are ‘specialty’ medications. I’m not sure what makes them ‘special’ ….as for the increased med xpenses post Tardive, I have thoughts on this matter but have never gone after a lawsuit. I actually have a better idea. I’m writing a book on it.

 

The cursor is blinking. Does that mean it’s time?