The Time is at Hand for a Agent/ Publishers search.

Writers…this is not a promo or commercial for my book. It’s writer’s musings while writing first draft.

 

All I want is for my story and the ballpark but the consistent consensus of my 10-neurologist ‘brain trust’ on answers to things like ‘What are my chances of getting this?’ to get out there.

I didn’t want to put pressure on myself by going after an agent/publisher before the first or second draft of my book  was written w/bibliography and footnotes.

I didn’t graduate from Stanford and sure didn’t major in English Lit which would have helped. I did, however, take a boatload of journalism classes and still have the notes.

From research I learned Tardive Dyskinesia is not only a side effect of antipsychotics but EVEN antidepressants, ADHD meds, Lithium, Depakote too! All these meds are good, solid meds..I’m not demonizing them. That’s been done to death.

Just like the opiate epidemic, it’s not really about the drugs…..it’s the suppression and lack of knowledge.  Just like the opiate war, it’s not a battle to be won overnight.

This is the first book on this side effect. It is or will become an important general health issue.

Tardive Dyskinesia ‘prevalence’ doubled in the space of three years. 500-700,000. No longer an ‘Orphan’ disease.

I didn’t exactly know the content and flow until I started working on my bibliography., (Which presently is 20 pages long).

What I have now is a halfway done first draft, footnotes and 3/4 done MLA bibliography with another new thing I learned ‘Department of Index’ (DOI) links.

.But the book still feels like ‘All Talk.’ I want it to be ‘for real,’ a deal sealed w/academic or indie press. I truly don’t want to self publish a shoddy book. I’m in over my head. I will if I have to……but gosh….I could just put it on my blog like I’m doing now.

I wish for a paperback to be available so people can hold it in their hands and see they are not alone.

I see the support I need to perfect things like formatting, developmental editing, punctuation and form of my bibliography, (which includes books, websites, dates of retrieval and press releases)… cover design, legal vetting, promotion and distribution….yada yada.

I know I need a partner.  Let other people help me out of their own self interest.  Either a pharmaceutical company pamphlet or a renegade book published by an indie or academic press. Royalties go to a 501C.

There are many people who would like the world to be better educated on the permanent side effect of Tardive Dyskinesia, a  61-year-old syndrome that’s been bullied into the broom closet because it’s scary to think about, affects patient compliance and overall, very bad for the lucrative antipsychotic business.

 

Why I’ve been Dark…..

Yeah, I’m writing a book on my favorite topic, a cause so crying out for coverage I can’t stand it. It’s inflammatory, political. Side effect not sickness. Something (a product) causes it. Or supposedly does. (I’m open to other theories. You know how quickly medicine changes).

The topic I wrestle (or wrestle) with the most is Tardive Dyskinesia, a side effect of antipsychotics. It’s gaining traction on Television with “The Good Wife’s” Michael J Fox’s character, Louis Canning, who has TV, or the ‘patient/perp’ storylines on “Law and Order.” TD comes up there in a clarion call crying out that for the mentally ill in the criminal justice system, justice can never be served. Well, it can get dicey out here on the outside of penal institutions as well.  It’s just that no one wants to hear about it just yet.

 

Mentally healthy people get prescriptions for Antipsychotics. In 2015, 60 million RX’s for antipsychotics were written, (according to QuintilesIMS, a global tech and data solutions provider for the healthcare industry.

These drugs are helping, it seems, everything under the sun, from anorexia to insomnia, OCD and anxiety. Who doesn’t want to feel better, right? I take one myself.

 

 Glowingly ‘madvertised’ on TV with enervating names that suggest Results (Rexulti) The World is Your Oyster (Geodon) Able again, (Abilify)….and that’s fine. These are good drugs and certainly an improvement over the mood stabilizers that ruined people’s kidneys. The thing is…they work so fast and so fully we forget to check the flip side. And there always is one.

 

If you are having uncontrollable movements and think you might be on one of these drugs….there’s finally an FDA-approved treatment for our 55 plus year old, long neglected syndrome, Tardive Dyskinesia. Another one, a second, (when it rains it pours) is supposed to be FDA-approved (or not) on August 30th.

I’m going to try one.

If YOU think you need a TD specialist, as opposed to a TD ‘Denier’ to check you out (and there are TD ‘Deniers’ out there, sad to say), here is a state-by-state link.

 

Hopefully, it will help you out. And yeah, I’m still bipolar…pulled out of my last ditch in March. I think DBT skills really helped. More on that later.  It’s good to be back.

http://www.lifescript.com/doctor-directory/condition/n-neuroleptic-induced-tardive-dyskinesia.aspx

 

 

Why I’ve been Dark…..

 

The topic I wrestle (or wrestle) with the most is Tardive Dyskinesia, a side effect of antipsychotics. It’s gaining traction on Television with “The Good Wife’s” Michael J Fox’s character, Louis Canning, who has TV, or the ‘patient/perp’ storylines on “Law and Order.” TD comes up there in a clarion call crying out that for the mentally ill in the criminal justice system, justice can never be served. Well, it can get dicey out here on the outside of penal institutions as well.  It’s just that no one wants to hear about it just yet.

 

Mentally healthy people get prescriptions for Antipsychotics. In 2015, 60 million RX’s for antipsychotics were written, (according to QuintilesIMS, a global tech and data solutions provider for the healthcare industry.

These drugs are helping, it seems, everything under the sun, from anorexia to insomnia, OCD and anxiety. Who doesn’t want to feel better, right? I take one myself.

 

They are sooo glowingly ‘madvertised’ on TV with enervating names that suggest Results (Rexulti) The World is Your Oyster (Geodon) Able again, (Abilify)….and that’s fine. These are good drugs and certainly an improvement over the mood stabilizers that ruined people’s kidneys. The thing is…they work so fast and so fully we forget to check the flip side. And there always is one.

 

If you are having uncontrollable movements and think you might be on one of these drugs….there’s finally an FDA-approved treatment for our 55 plus year old, long neglected syndrome, Tardive Dyskinesia. Another one, a second, (when it rains it pours) is supposed to be FDA-approved (or not) on August 30th.

I’m going to try one.

If YOU think you need a TD specialist, as opposed to a TD ‘Denier’ to check you out (and there are TD ‘Deniers’ out there, sad to say), here is a state-by-state link.

 

Hopefully, it will help you out. And yeah, I’m still bipolar…pulled out of my last ditch in March. I think DBT skills really helped. More on that later.  It’s good to be back.

http://www.lifescript.com/doctor-directory/condition/n-neuroleptic-induced-tardive-dyskinesia.aspx

 

 

Are you at risk of Tardive Dyskinesia? Find out now.

You know that rapidly rattled off disclaimer “Call your doctor if you experience involuntary repetitive movements as these are serious and may become permanent.”

No shit, Sherlock. This International Bipolar Disorder Story has some of the stuff the doctors won’t tell us. The TD causing meds developed for schizophrenia are now being used for mainstream, run of the mill, non mental ill concerns such as anxiety, adhd, insomnia, cancer and anorexia (stimulate appetite) depression, and bipolar disorder, so you might be on one of the drugs that’s whitewashed as something else and be at risk. The drug companies don’t exactly advertise they’re selling reformulated Thorazine. Antipsychotics.

Be safe. Be sure.

http://ibpf.org/blog/tardive-dyskinesia-decade-later

Allison

Are you at risk of Tardive Dyskinesia? Find out now.

You know that rapidly rattled off disclaimer “Call your doctor if you experience involuntary repetitive movements as these are serious and may become permanent.”

No shit, Sherlock. This International Bipolar Disorder Story has some of the stuff the doctors won’t tell us. The TD causing meds developed for schizophrenia are now being used for mainstream, run of the mill, non mental ill concerns such as anxiety, adhd, insomnia, cancer and anorexia (stimulate appetite) depression, and bipolar disorder, so you might be on one of the drugs that’s whitewashed as something else and be at risk. The drug companies don’t exactly advertise they’re selling reformulated Thorazine. Antipsychotics.

Be safe. Be sure.

http://ibpf.org/blog/tardive-dyskinesia-decade-later

Allison

Bipolar Depression…it’s baaacckkk! and 2,000 of my ‘Itunes’ songs are ‘Missing!’ Still!

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I’m depressed again.

This really sucks. How long’s it gonna last? I can’t think of any antidepressant I HAVEN’T TAKEN. So what do we do?

When it hit me, I spent the next two days in bed. But I can’t do that. So I crawled out and went to starbucks, my daily routine with the newspaper. I’m going to continue writing and blogging and doing the stuff I do…I just don’t enjoy it half as much.

Even lifting weights. I do it because I believe it’s really good, physically, for the mind. Prevents cognitive decline. So I’ve been going on iTunes, even though I’m one of the people who have that bug, and burning songs. Some that I buy won’t download. They have this little exclamation point right to the left. There are tons of forums about this.

 

Apple’s position? The problem is on our end and they take no responsibility. In the meantime I purchase new music by Guided By Voices, Daft Punk and even the Red Hot Chili Peppers, who I was never that crazy about. Like Primus. You call that music? I donnaknow.

 

I’m the Worst Blogger in the World and Now, I need Help

I’m Allison and Have Bipolar Disorder, Chronic Pain, Tardive Dyskinesia and possibly Sjogren’s syndrome. (I find out today on the Sjogren’s…genetically, it makes perfect sense).

I’m in bipolar depression relapse, which is awful. I had a great 2 1/2 years of remission.

Over the course of the last 17 years I’ve had perpetual, off and on med burnout, which has a very geeky name, Antidepressant Therapy Tachyphylaxis, which means the antidepressants just stop working. I think a lot of people have this problem but there’s a black void where knowledge should be.

Articles on it, and other names for it, like “Prozac Poopout” are all over the internet. In the past we’ve resolved it over time by cycling to newer meds. Pristiq, then Viibryd and finally Brintellix, (now called Trintellix) and then Fetzima, which didn’t work.

Two different times we used Trintellix, which worked for a few years, and needed to be discontinued and then worked again when we ‘recycled it.’

I’m worried. I think I’ve burnt out all the drugs that act on Dopamine, Serotonin, Norepinephrine and need to go to a different class like a tricyclic or MAOI. The fact that I have Tardive Dyskinesia reduces our treatment options greatly.

I think it might eliminate an MAOI, because monoamines factor into TD…in some way.

I’m just really scared.

Antipsychotics…..all different, I found out by experimentation

tiarawithoutsilver 001 I’m not bashing atypical antipsychotics..compared to the alternative mood stabilizers they are cleaner  …..antipsychotics are great.

Don’t get me wrong. I wouldn’t give up my Clozaril for a minute. Even though it requires monthly bloodwork.

But there are ways to take your medicine judiciously and reduce your odds.

This picture was taken back in the day when I was on Geodon, not the right drug for me. It made me more manic. Then, Abilify, which is said to be ‘helpful for depression,’ made me depressed!  I told my doctor and he shhshsed me. Did you know that psychosis is a side effect of discontinuing antipsychotics?

When I finally got off of Abilify, I was hearing voices again.  Mercifully, it was during a hurricane, so it was normal for the shutters to be closed and the house dark. I was psychotic the first three days. That’s a side effect of trying to get off antipsychotics, I found out.

Antipsychotics block D2 (dopamine receptor) and after a while, the D2 receptor, wanting what it’s been deprived of, become increasingly sensitive to even the least little bit. That’s when movement disorder occurs. If I’d just stayed on Seroquel, I think I would have been ok.

The reason I say this is when my shakes showed up, I was on Geodon. I had no idea I’d even been on antipsychotics. In clinic, We went back to Seroquel and my symptoms disappeared….for a year.

Then we put me back on a ‘weight neutral,’ Invega.

The shakes came right back. We went back to Seroquel and they lessened.

You probably aren’t interested in this stuff, but believe me, with tens of millions of Americans don’t even know they are taking relatives of Thorazine. Their likelihood of getting TD, (according to NAMI and MHA)is 30-50% after long term exposure (and these drugs are meant to be taken for life). They are not bad meds, but lower doses and nutrition are just two of the ways people can reduce their risk. But if they don’t even know, like I didn’t, how can they think preventatively?

Computer wierdness

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What’s going on?

I was responding to an email and it just slipped away. I have to ask the sender, (a high -level neurologist I don’t want to pester) to resend. It’s not in deleted, sent, drafts…

Then I went to Tumblr and when I hit ‘post’ it wouldn’t post. It just quivered up at the top. I don’t know what the issue is.

Then, some days, my ‘attachment’ function works simply and easily, while other days I have to drag and drop and then on the worst days, I can’t do either and I have to put my stories in the body of the email.

I lost my grant for Tardive Medicine which makes me angry because the manufacturers of the agent that caused it should chip in at my extra expenses. I’m working on the chapter of the book “Where to Turn.”

Good Question. At least Google still works!